I asked my discord server what my first post should be about. Most people chose a story from my life. Now, I didn't expect this one to win the odds, but my only idea was to write about how I actually found out what my dreams and goals are. I think a lot of people have trouble with this, so it may help some to hear about my journey.
Being my mother must have been hard because as a kid I almost never had a time where I just sat and enjoyed being a kid. I was always thinking and talking about the future and what I wanted to do/be. My mother always said I was years older than my age. When I heard this as a child, I didn't believe her, and I didn't believe her until I started making friends and talking to people my own age, not older than me. I quickly realized that I was the only one who thought this way, and I quickly began to feel like a wall in most of my friendships. As a kid, all I could think about was being good at something and doing it for my career. I had big goals and dreams that honestly even now I look back and think "Oh what was I thinking"
At the end of this 'story' I wrote a list of all the things I wanted to pursue (it's impossible to put them all together in one story, believe me, so I'll only tell you stories about the most important dreams)
Now let's start from the beginning.
My first dream was to become a doctor. That dream quickly fell apart when I learned that sometimes you can't save everyone. From that moment on, I knew I wanted to help people in some way, but not related to death. That's when I started to realize my love for animals and how I wanted to help them. Again, that dream disappeared when I realized I wanted to heal injured animals. As you can see, my heart was not the strongest when it came to such difficult topics. A few years later I also learned that I am very careful with organs and blood.
The next big dream I remember was to become an astronomer. I love outer space and have always wondered what is out there. I still have that love. I remember that dream also came from a place of fear. This fear made me want to know everything about him. But as we know space is infinite and I couldn't get an answer to something we didn't have an answer to. I'm not sure when this dream was fixed as I still really like space, a bit off-topic for example, but my dream date is sitting in the back of a truck watching the sunset and looking at the stars. It's oddly specific, but I'd also go to the planetarium for a day if they didn't go beyond that.
Coming back to "history", because that's not the definition of a typical story. At the age of 6, I joined the first and last scouting team (I left at the age of 16, almost 17). I met my first childhood best friend in this troupe. She introduced me to the world of singing and acting. When we were about 7, we auditioned and got into the musical Annie. (Yes, I was a musical theater child.) I was neither the best nor the worst. I was average, my love at that time was acting, not singing. Basically, I have to pretend to be someone else. For some reason, this turned me on. I played in musical theater until I was about 15, I was there for about 8 years. As I grew older, theater groups became very clickable and I decided to leave because I felt that not only was I being left out, but also others.
When I left the world of musical theater I really took a break and thought "Wait a minute what the hell am I going to do if I don't want to be an actress" (remember I worked hard for this for about 8 years) I focused mostly on acting for 8 years I was doing other things on the side, but when I got rid of one big thing, I thought, "Did it all go to waste if I didn't go for it?" Then I thought, "Well, I've always loved to write short stories, what if I became a writer?" I wrote a lot of short stories and I really enjoyed it. So that's still one of the things I want to stay in. (Yes, I have a list, you can laugh) After the theater, not only did I start writing more, but I took up gymnastics even more seriously. I've been doing this since I was about 9 years old, I think, don't quote me on that. I took a few lessons to learn as much as possible. Although I retired from gymnastics when I started getting injured. After I injured my neck, my passion for it disappeared. After that, I really started to focus on school and nothing else. All I knew was that I had a natural talent for learning. Not the best thing to be good at, don't you think? That's what I thought then. But recently I realized that studying is the greatest talent you can have, I can learn practically anything and at a fast pace.
Then covid hit when I was 15 and turned 16. This left me alone without seeing my friends, and as a 15-year-old, my friends were my whole life. I tended to confront my deep inner thoughts and demons which I wisely avoided by being distracted and always on the move. To put that into perspective, I had about 3 different jobs every day. That's when my depression really started to show. Covid was probably the worst and best thing that happened to me. It forced me to face my inner demons and all the things I hated about myself. Covid also forced me to be online more, which made my body dysmorphic as I looked at all these other people on social media and how different they were from me. How their bodies were shaped in a way mine wasn't.
I feel like most people will think I'm talking about breasts (I want to talk about body parts, get over it) but I really wish I had breasts. Most people wouldn't know, because of my online presence, I never really showed my body and honestly tried to hide as much as possible. But when I grew up, I grew very fast and very big. Puberty hit me around 9 and they still haven't stopped growing and it's been 10 years.
But anyway, the point was these social media girls were wearing cute clothes that I loved that only fit their small breasts and little bone structure (I have a more muscular build) and they didn't look good on me and would never they did because my body was just genetically different. I was so insecure about my body that I got to a point where I couldn't bear to look at myself without having an episode. My mother found this to be a big problem and took me to her colleagues to help me (my mother was a counselor, she still is, but she does so much more). I actually overcame it, it took a lot of work but I did it and then I started loving social media and wanted to make it my career.
I've always liked to play since I was younger and I owe that to my brothers. So after posting random YouTube videos for a while, I started posting YouTube videos about gaming, specifically about playing Minecraft. I then decided to join SMP (survival multiplayer) with other people who also wanted to become YouTubers. I fell in love with her community when I started streaming on Twitch.
I am a speaker. I like to talk, so streaming was easy for me to spot. I sat and talked, although no one was listening. After being around people who wanted to become YouTubers, I really started to miss my own community. So I did what anyone would do and turned to short content, also known as TikTok. I have been studying TikTok algorithms for about 3 weeks. Then I spent about a week brainstorming how to apply what I know to my content. To be honest, I also posted on TikTok for fun in the beginning as I learned the algorithm, let's say I deleted those videos since then. But after I studied and learned all about how TikTok works, I started seeing results. I remember coming home from work and seeing someone commenting on my film. I wasn't focused on responding to comments at the time. I focused on content delivery. When I finally decided to get one notification (I later found out there was a bug that only showed one), I was amazed to see that my video had 12,000 views in less than 24 hours. After that, my content grew at a rate I could barely keep up with. I grew from 1 follower to 100,000 in two months.
You may be thinking "HOLY CH*T, THIS IS AMAZING, TEACH ME." I thought so for a while, but after two months of daily posting, I started to feel overwhelmed and burned out. Besides streaming and publishing videos, it took a lot of work. I spent at least 3 hours on one video for TikTok. Don't forget that I still had homework and work that I did every day. I usually went to work after 3-4 hours of sleep.
Many know the beginning until now. But the short summary is that I grew from 1 to 100,000 on TikTok, then won to 3,000 on Twitch, and made a total of about $1,500 on Twitch. I gained a lot of experience thanks to this. But around August last year, I started my current job. That's when I moved from TikTok to just streaming. I streamed for a while after that, but it kept on and off. My mental state was very weak then, I could hardly get up in the morning. Also, I haven't seen my therapist in months because I was feeling fine until then. That's when I decided to take a break from streaming. I took about a month off, after which my mental health improved, but then it deteriorated even more. I didn't know how to go on living, in fact I didn't know how to go on living. I felt like I had no purpose. Around that time, I met a person who completely changed my life. I was feeling bad, which was due to some incidents in my past involving some people. But they showed me that not everyone is like that. They told me to be the best streamer in the world and not to give up. I found my motivation again and started streaming again and even posting on TikTok again. Some time after I knew them, something happened. In short, they were no longer with me. Which caused my streaming to stop again.
Losing someone you really care about is bad, but if they care about you as much as you care about them, I wouldn't wish that on anyone, not even someone I don't like. I forced myself to create fitness content because it was the only thing I could bring myself to do. Games have started to cause me more problems than they help me relax, so I'm backing out of it. Then I went to college because I decided I wanted to focus on fitness and health. I chose a bachelor's degree in exercise science. The first required lesson was yoga, and let me tell you, it was these classes that really helped me decide what I wanted to do in life. (I know, weird, yoga classes helped me, I even have a yoga symbol tattoo.) In these classes I learned how to connect mind and body and how to reduce stress. I suffer from chronic stress disorder, which, according to a short description from Yale Medicine, is chronic stress. "Constantly feeling under pressure and overwhelmed for a long time" If you want to know more about this, I refer you to the end of this article. Yoga made me think stress free. I fell in love with it and enjoyed the classes more than any other classes I have ever attended. I started to think that yoga helped me a lot and I want to help others in this way. I like fitness, especially weightlifting. So I decided my goal was to open the best gym in the world. A gym that not only helps you strengthen your physical body, but also your mental strength and a place where you can help your health.
So in the end I was a champion and still am. I loved trying different things, and if I didn't try all the things I did, I couldn't cross the things I tried off the list of things I wanted to be. The more things you try, the more you know what not to follow. My mom always said that people between the ages of 17 and 22 who have no idea what they want to do in life are in a much better place than someone who is focused on one thing. I was confused as to why my mom said that and she said, "Abii, those people who focus on one thing will most likely change their minds later because they haven't explored all the options of who they want to be."
All my life I knew I wanted to help people, but I wasn't sure how I wanted to do it until I met my yoga instructor. As promised below is a list of all the things I tried when I was younger.
This is Abi signing
A list of all the things I thought I might want to pursue:
Horse Riding, Gymnastics, Cooking School, Drawing, Painting, Photography, Writing, Acting, Singing, Dancing, Astrology, Gaming, Social Media, Physics, Graphic Design, Videography, Screenwriting, Video Editing, Photo Editing, Entrepreneur. (more I can't think of right now, but there are more xD)
Here is a link to an article on chronic stress:https://www.yalemedicine.org/conditions/stress-disorder#:~:text=%E2%80%A2A%20consistent%20sense%20of,changes%2C%20medications%2C%20setting%20realistic%20goals
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